October 2009- FREAKING out that I have yet to even buy diapers for a baby I do not know the gender of coming in 2-3 weeks.
Until now, I didn't realize just how convenient it was to know the GENDER of the baby. If I have the baby at the same time I had Parker, it will arrive next Sunday. SUNDAY! I have yet to find the 0-3 months clothes for Boys and Girls, because my husband has stacked them under everything we own in storage. I'm not going to lie, there may be a bit of silent thinking that if I don't prepare, it won't happen so soon. My Parker is still my baby right now. As much as I know I will love the new babe, I hate that Parker is now taking back seat. He had so little time being the baby. The fact that I will have two children with whom I cannot communicate with, have to clean dirty diapers and constantly carry in my arms is kind of scaring me to death. Not to mention all of the horror stories people are so willing to talk about when they find out the age gap. I feel like I will really need to rely on the Lord the next few months. I am not one who comes by patience easily.
We will make it.
I will live.
Now where the heck is my nesting INSTINCT!!