It seems like I was just writing about coming here to the little town of Santaquin... all the fears of not making friends, having crazy neighbors, not liking the city etc... Now I am crying at the prospect of leaving in two weeks. I have truly loved it here and am grateful for the wonderful people we have come to know in our short time here.
We will be living in McCammon until we sell our house and build our new one. We went and looked at the spot we are planning to build in the next year this last Sunday, it is beautiful! It is surrounded by huge fields of grain and hay, the front door looks out to a beautiful set of mountains right at our doorstep and the closest neighbor is close to a mile away. I guess in the back of my mind this is what I have always wanted, a place with some peace and quiet, some land, and a place where I feel secure to raise my kiddos. I really feel like this is right for us now. Bancroft, ID would not have been at the top of my list to live when I first got married, but as I realize how wicked the world is getting, I want to have some solace, to get away from a lot of it... I feel like we'll get that there.
Parker is 100% better!!! 2 weeks ago I took him in for a checkup (one week after he had arrived home from the hospital) and he had LOST another pound since he got home! :( I was so freaked out. I had lost a lot of my milk while at the hospital since Parker wasn't eating. The doctor put me on a drug called Reglan to help bring it back, and by Thursday I was a nut case. The drug had made me really wierd. I was seriously depressed, didn't want to get off the couch, didn't want to be a Mom any more, my muscles felt really weak, I was shaking and it was just like I didn't feel comfortable in my skin!! I hated the feeling! I really have more sympathy for those who have depression, it's not something you can shake off... I felt terrible. Thursday night I finally realized that these were probably side effects from the drug. I quit taking it, and was fine the next day. My milk is still not enough to keep Parker completely happy, so I have been supplementing about 4-6 ounces a day when he is still acting hungry. I am SO grateful that formula exists, so I don't have to watch him go hungry.
2 more weeks and we are outta here... We've rented a truck and will be moving the 22nd. I am excited at the prospect of living closer to family. Loren is stoked that he is going back to the farm. It makes me happy to see him so excited about his job. He's always been a farm boy at heart even dressed up in suit and tie with his latest job.